Finding Oneself After Divorce. Crossing The River Jordan.
I Am An Independent Woman; I Don’t Need A Man! by Dr. Sandra Scott Wright
Became An Independent Single Woman Free At Last!
The next months and days were quite revealing. I began to turn inwards towards myself. I Who was I? What did I like? What did I want? What were my plans? These were all questions for the first time I found myself being faced with. I began to explore things I’ve always wanted to do, but there was always a reason to not do it…Not enough money, time, etc. This time I was going to do the things I enjoyed. I took up swimming and began to run track. I lost 100lbs in the process. I took myself out to dinner and on Wednesdays, took myself to my favorite place for lunch. Often as I sat alone at such lunches I would think if anyone had told me I would be at such a wonderful place having such a marvelous lunch and doing it all by myself I would have told them they were crazy.
The waitresses soon began to pre-prepare my place and order my lunch whenever I would arrive; I was becoming a regular. I knew what the bill would be $25.00 and I would always leave a nice tip sometime $10.00 just grateful for the personable service and the ability to be able to do it. Oh yes I forgot to mention I was blessed to reinstate my license as a nurse. It was one of the fastest turnaround times according to the nursing board! God was and still is faithful.
began to shop at designer stores and for the first time in my life buy clothes I really wanted and could afford. I remember one day I went into a 70% off sale and had only spent $300.00. I had several thousand dollars worth in clothing. I was a brand new me, had lost 100lbs had an entire new wardrobe, had a new attitude and I was single! One more thing I had to do…go by myself some real jewelry. I went and bought myself some diamond earrings and a new ring to replace where my wedding ring was…it was a garnet, and I said to myself, “No man will ever have to worry about putting another ring on this finger, I’m buying this one for myself. I could hear the song, “I’m Coming Out. I want the world to know how I love them so!”
I had my apartment repainted the way ‘I’ wanted it, this time I didn’t have to compromise, but could do it the way I wanted it all myself. I bought a few new pieces and replaced the television my now ‘ex’ had taken with him.
This went on for several months, my enjoying the things I found out I loved and then it began to happen…
I found myself feeling a deep emptiness on the inside. I felt like I was the only one on the planet. I felt alone…There were several ‘after divorce support groups’ I attended but after the meetings and even during the emptiness remained. I cried out to God and it still remained…
New body, new clothes, new career, new apartment, car, etc…but empty…what could this mean? To be continued…
Please note* It is time to be delivered my testimony is paired with deliverance teaching from our cover ministry LM International.us, it is time to be healed, delivered and transformed. Take the time to read and follow the teaching and watch the Holy Spirit make a brand new you! It happened for me and it will happen for you. Click the links below and let the healing begin!
1.Starting Over Again: God’s Way!
2. Overcoming the Spirit of Guilt & The “Master” Spirit of Shame: Finishing The Work!
Note: Since I experienced this in 2002, I have established a new ministry, gotten a great job, a new house, a doctorate, a wonderful husband, and a much more beautiful relatonship with the Lord! Who Knew?
This sereis begins with
Abandoned: God Wouldn”t Let This Happen To Me!”
